totality

"..they put us in hospital for mental diseases and they gave us some shots, i don`t know what kind of shots, i saw.. myself that i was speaking aloud without my knowledge. first six months sure was very difficult, but later not having any perspective, any horizon, any place to look out, just four walls of your cells you have to go somewhere, i went inside, because you know in the western world we have so called cosmological knowledge we go in the outer space outside of ourselves, everything we that explore is outside .. but what about you, what about this inner universe that is a human personality, is infinite like an atom we call it soul in Christian term.."